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Once again, I had hurt my true love. Once again, I have run from Him, disobeyed Him, left Him to Himself. The pain I had felt was so great...
One day, I came back to Him with ill intentions. It seemed like I was some business person instead of His Beloved; a masked sinner with everything to hide.
When He saw me coming to Him, He smiled the biggest, most welcoming smile and He ran over to me, just like He had done in the past. I stood there and bowed my head.
"Nelly!" He said so beautifully that the trees bent over to listen to more of His melodic voice.
My head remained bowed. I lifted my right hand and removed a ring; a ring that He had given me. His smile immediately disappeared and He stared at my ring, then at me. He slowly lifted my head and asked gently, "Nelly...what are you doing...?"
I had tried to stay strong. But His voice, His beautiful, soothing voice, made tears slide down my dirtied face.  
"I can't... I can't do this anymore, Jesus..." I said, trying to sound like the strongest person in the world.
Concern flooded His face and He bent down to my level.
"Do what, sweetheart...?" He asked, the leaves dancing to His voice.
"I'm going to hurt you again...over and over...non-stop! Don't You understand yet? I'm a sinner, Jesus! I'll never be as good to You as You are to me! Please try to understand! I'm doing this for Your own good; I'm getting out of Your life forever, and You don't ever have to worry about me ever again! You'll finally be happy! Please, understand!" I said, more tears coming from my eyes. My speech started to become very difficult to understand right around the "I'm a sinner..." part. But I couldn't help it.
Jesus didn't keep His eyes off me, His concern was still pasted on His face. He closed His eyes and I saw a tear slide down. I hate to see Him cry...and I knew that it was my fault...
After my rant, He simply grabbed my right hand with His left and put His right hand in mine. His eyes expressed so much love and sorrow...then, He simply pleaded...
"Please...don't leave me..."
I widened my eyes and fell to my knees. Did...did He just...I had never heard Him say anything like this to me before...
More tears spilled from my eyes as He whispered, "Don't leave me..."
I felt that if I had left Him, then His whole world would crash and burn. It seemed impossible; He doesn't need me!
But He wants me. O, He wants me...

And He wants you.
I had this conversation with Jesus before. I was sick and tired of myself that I wanted to leave Him alone. He simply said, "Don't leave me."

Even in the worst situation, He still loves you and He wants you back. Don't leave Him.
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Chrissy9700 Featured By Owner May 23, 2016
Dangit! I'm not crying!Invisible ninjas are cutting up onions in my room again.Waaaah! Happymote1 
will2012 Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2011
My beloved is mine and I am his :D

=) So sweet to have this love :)
His-Beloved Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2011
DancingPenofAutumn Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2011   Writer
Sorry if I sound this supposed to be romantic? @_@

But it's very beautiful, no doubt. :D
His-Beloved Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2011
Hehe, in a sense, I'm sure Jesus wanted to make it romantic!!!

Jesus and I love you!!!
Shazzae Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I had to read it again. It is true I need Him. And I am so thankful to God that he helped me tremendously to realize that.
His-Beloved Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2011
You may read it as many times as you wish, dear! These stories that God writes through me (even though I may make a mistake or two), are meant to bring you closer to Jesus.
I am quite overjoyed that you chose to read it again because I know that somebody is feeling that love that Jesus has in their own hearts and spreading that love unto others.

Jesus and I love you!!!
SyMonsTeR Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2011  Student General Artist
this made me cry
deng-li-xin32 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2011
Wow... so simple and so beautiful.
It's a beautiful thought actually: He doesn't need us, but He wants us... I think that bit was my favourite.
Nimfalas Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2011
Thank you for sharing. The Christ in you touched me today!
Nimfalas Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2011
Wow, so powerful and so true. This is a testimony every brother and sister in Christ can relate to, even if we would deny it to ourselves or others. It strikes a chord somewhere in my deep, innermost parts... because it's no longer your story, but it becomes MY story. My story that I know, that I remember, and a story that reminds me in a fresh and vital way of His deep and powerful love... that love which we cannot escape. No one can pluck me out of His hand... Not Satan, and certainly not myself.

When Jesus loves us, He loves us to the uttermost! No sin, no failure, or weakness on our part can separate us from the love of God!! Oh, Lord Jesus... I love you too. And I won't leave you, and I couldn't leave you, even if I should try... again and again...
Doeray-G Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2011  Professional Traditional Artist
His-Beloved Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2011
Thank you all for reading this!!!
I'm glad you all enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it!

Jesus and I love you!!,
SeekHim Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
This is beautiful.
Shazzae Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
That made me cry. It was so beautiful!!!
DJChocolate-Lover Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2011  Student General Artist
I'm incapable of saying anything other than Awwwwww
Ikuar Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2011  Student Digital Artist
Thank you, this is amazing. <3
ArtStudioAngel Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2011
Thank you so much for sharing this.
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